the current boy predicament that i REALLY did my best to try to stay away from…
i FELT a connection
i FELT flirted with
i FELT lovely… and each day i left those things at the door…
each day…
i focused on Christ
i wore unattractive (baggy) clothes
i wore no make up
i even talked about poop!
i pursued nothing…
because i know me
and my heart
and we get hurt too easily
but he perused…
and he persisted
to the point that he was in legal danger if i ever played the ‘professionalism’ card
so when that happened
i FELT like if i was worth that risk to him, than i was worth a lot…
when his ACTIONS spoke loudly, it was then that i began to trust…
i began to trust his WORDS…
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CM: awww, adorable.
yay danielle in the dating world
woop woop
…dating world just got less awful
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CM: theres no real rule, the whole point of it is so you dont get sued for sexual harrassment or something, cuz sometimes ppl date, and then one person decides the other was a jerk and decides that the best way to get revenge is to sue them or something
im really not so clear on it, because i dont intend on being a jerk
so yeah, we’re good
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CM: aw, you’re one of the good ones. i know things will turn out
you might even be the best one
me: ok
CM: its neck and neck
me: AWWW
thanks!
neck and neck – WHOA!
CM: yep. and i dont even know who with!
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THERE IS MORE AND MORE AND MORE
and, then of course, real life conversations as well…
WAS I WRONG?
WAS I CRAZY to have started to turn that cold shoulder his way?
WAS I?
the things he said were wooing and special
honouring and proper… he thought of me as a lady and treated me as such
what he said was hilarious, observant, planned, caring, deep, encouraging and hopeful
lovely and leading…
lovely and leading…
and i felt like God was saying… ‘see… everything before was worth it… FOR THIS!’
but now – after all this, i feel like i was deceived…
and i dont think intentionally…
and i dont even think by him…
i was more-so deceived by myself
BUT!
BOYS!
dont say lovely things then change your mind…
if you and that ‘lady’ dont have a safe context in which to say those lovely things, then dont!
be friends!
JUST – BE – FRIENDS!
if – after prayer, consideration and friendship through the good and bad- you still want to say those lovely things to her… THEN pursue something more and if she reciprocates…
then say all the lovely things you’ve been saving in your heart…
say ALLof them!
She WILL love it!
how much more lovely is that?!
and GIRLS!
dont trust boys…
dont trust boys to be careful with your heart…
even if they know how youve been hurt before…
even if they get upset about how others have hurt you…
even if it feels different…
even if it seems that the stars aligned for you two to BE…
even if all these things happen and more…
…dont trust boys to be careful with your heart.
girls, you all are worth lovely words!
but you were made to hear them from only one person who will love you with lovely words forever…
and if that time doesnt come, TRUST that God has and will always love you, in word and in deed, more than boy ever can or ever will.
though they should, boys dont know when to tame their tongues and their words travel deeper than your ears…
…their words make their way into your heart and into your mind and mix with all the hopes and dreams that God has given you, and soon God’s perfect plan becomes chipped and bent and changed to fit these lovely words…
we end up trading God’s perfect words of truth and love for reasonable facsimiles, just to win this idea of a prize for a contest that we’ve made up in our heads…
Christ has won it all… and He STILL considers YOU the prize
John 15:9 – “As the Father has loved me, so have I loved you. Now remain in my love.”
Lets remain His lovely word and in His love!
