Whitetrash Sunday Sinners

i used to see people out in in their yards on a sunday
like washing their cars
or painting a fence
or mowing their lawn
or whatever
with a beer in their hands… and i was like EWW nasty whitetrash sunday sinners
but im at the wilsons for Thanksgiving and their aunt offered us a beer
and i was like why the heck not
then alicia had to clean out the car
so then we took our beers outside and cleaned the car…..
and itdidnt register at first… but then i was like crap… i am whitetrash!
everything i had worked so hard against
and here i was drinking a beer and cleaning out the car in the driveway on a sunday afternoon
its not like were listening to kim mitchell or anything…. butstill
when it registered something inside me was disappointed with… me…
isnt that weird when that happens…
and you can picture yourself riding down the street on your bike and judging this other you cleaning a car with a beer on the roof…
now for-real, i feel nautious… maybe cause i dont drink often, maybe cause i NEVER drink beer, maybe i just feel sick that i am that thing i never liked…
so yeah….
this is humbling
and thats always sucky but good
maybe by moving down on the danielle ladder of trash and class im also moving up on the ladder of not being a judgmental jerk
so thats always good
so im a little more trashy…. but i think i can handle that…
so lets say… overall… this was good.